I Wish I Was Better

I wish I was better
At telling people what I’m thinking.
I wish I could get the words out of my mind
And arrange them all pretty and neat.
I wish I was better
At expressing how I feel.
I wish I could find the emotions
And make them real.
To say that, makes it seem
Like I don’t feel anything at all.
But, the reality is, I get overwhelmed.
All these emotions make me feel 3 inches tall.
I wish I was better at making friends,
So that not everyone leaves me
Picking up pieces in the end.
I wish I was better
At coping with my depression.
The meds never work
And neither do therapy sessions.
I wish I was better
At controlling my anxiety
So that I could go on about my life
And not have a care or worry.
I wish I was better
At almost everything in my life.
But I have good family and friends,
I have good days
And I know things will turn out alright.