No One Warned Me

There are days,
Sometimes more often than not,
Where I can barely get myself out of bed,
When my strength has been all but shot.
There are times too,
More often here recently,
When my heart feels pain,
As if it’s actually breaking.
Some days my head feels ready to explode
And it’s all I can do to keep myself afloat.
There are days when the sun light
Ceases to reach me,
When the clouds are so thick
That the air becomes harder and harder to breathe.
I feel as though the pretty pictures and shiny trinkets
Were cruel tricks of illusion,
As though my hopes and dreams were scattered
To nothing more than pathetic delusions.
I knew deep down
That there would be pain and heart ache.
But no one warned me
That it would feel this way.
I do my best to stay on top
Of this beast that lives inside.
I do my best to stand my ground
And make the most out of my life.
Some days it feels like I’m utterly alone,
That no one understands.
But just as it seems like I’m about to give in,
You’re there to grab my hand.
You’re the one who helps me through
The pain, the anxiety, the feelings of emptiness.
You pull me up and help me out
Of depression’s ruthless grip.